Wishing on a wishing star

yaz.shy.cute. silly.
yummy
They know me as yazzy
And I am not a kitty
I love pretty boys and I like to read
And I am very very nice
I like natural things and Vampires
Friends dig me
Like a bowl of applejacks
They say I’m naughty
But I’m good
Now peace out and go save a life.

Jan 22

his annoying ex gf messaged me. Never respond. Never react. If her messages make you upset, avoid them, but don’t respond

Posted at 6:01 PM

Jan 20
“I deserve someone that wants me every second of their live because that’s what true love really is”

He’s a part of me.  I really wish i could explain how i feel, but i know i cant fully but i can try. Its like happiness I’ve never felt before. I know i deserved “love?” i just didnt know what it was or with who. but know i do :)

and its growing and we’re learning making mistakes

“People make mistakes, even the ones we love. We forgive, and keep moving forward.”

 i know he doesnt want to hurt me. so i guess thats why he didnt tell me that was his ex who i met at his home.  but it makes you second guess someone when they have to lie about something.but i wouldn’t have cared just like i didnt care when he told me.  for now its all water under the bridge. no ones perfect. but together we are ;)

maryland had my heart and  now my residency  hahah

going to see some friends and  cute baby boys named luke and giuseppe

xoxo
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Posted at 6:23 PM

ever wonder

who am i.

Posted at 6:06 PM

sweetestgbye asked: Merry Christmas, love. <3

awwww thankss happy new year grace !

Posted at 5:01 PM

Aug 19
The most wonderful thing in the world. I&#8217;m actually really happy. and so is he.  I never had this before. And I can&#8217;t stop thinking of how perfect he is :) and now im going to try to write obnoxiously cute things hehe. once we started texting and talking almost 24/7 i knew I had to go to maryland to see mike. And when I did it was the worst trip i ever had to take with trains and buses LOL but it was worth every second of it. The feelings that rushed over me when we hung out were incredible. It was like there&#8217;s no way he could like me but wait OMG he just grabbed my hand next he was kissing my forehead  ahhh I was falling for him so bad. The only place i wanted to be was in his arms. It&#8217;s still the only place I wanna be in the world right now. in his arms. It was getting time for me to leave and all i kept thinking was i found the greatest thing and now i have to leave. but everything changed the moment we kissed. If you ever ask when was my best kiss. It definetly was that moment Me and Mike kissed for the first time. It was everything magical and sparks did fly and i melted into him. &lt;3 &lt;3 :D. Everything about Michael is so wonderful. He is so wonderful to me. We just clicked instantly.  the things he says to me are unbelievably lovely.  Never had a boy say I&#8217;m the one he wants forever and always. That he would wait forever for me. &lt;3 &lt;3 my fairytale and he&#8217;s it.  The way mike feels about me is like no other and the way I feel about him is indescribable with words.   I&#8217;m not sure if I ever was in love to know what love feels like. I thought I was but someone once told me that he pictures love to be the way it is when hes married and happy. I can picture being married to Michael.  He takes care of me and I take care of him.  I caress his life with my warmth and my words and my lips. I am never anything but kind to him and he is the same with me. It&#8217;s all I ever wanted. To get back what I gave. I will never stop feeling so lucky. I feel so lucky whenever I look into his eyes. Right now they are green with a faint yellow line. I get weak in the knees staring into my favorite color. His sexiness I am attracted to just blows me away. He has not just his ears peirced but he has tattoos.  I mean we all know how much i love that&#160;!!!! lol and not to mention the cherry on top ..HIS amazingly ripped abs&#160;! lol you so dam fine mike  sike i miss you way more than just for your hottness baby.  &lt;3  The affection you give me when we are together is incredible. I love the way you make me feel like I am the only girl in the world for you. Because its exactly how I feel about you. I trust him. even though I have all these fears like he won&#8217;t feel the same way about me or that there&#8217;s no way he really will always shower me with this love.  But I will surrender and discover.  He&#8217;s got my heart. and he keeps fighting for it. 8/7/10 &lt;3

The most wonderful thing in the world. I’m actually really happy. and so is he.  I never had this before. And I can’t stop thinking of how perfect he is :) and now im going to try to write obnoxiously cute things hehe. once we started texting and talking almost 24/7 i knew I had to go to maryland to see mike. And when I did it was the worst trip i ever had to take with trains and buses LOL but it was worth every second of it. The feelings that rushed over me when we hung out were incredible. It was like there’s no way he could like me but wait OMG he just grabbed my hand next he was kissing my forehead  ahhh I was falling for him so bad. The only place i wanted to be was in his arms. It’s still the only place I wanna be in the world right now. in his arms. It was getting time for me to leave and all i kept thinking was i found the greatest thing and now i have to leave. but everything changed the moment we kissed. If you ever ask when was my best kiss. It definetly was that moment Me and Mike kissed for the first time. It was everything magical and sparks did fly and i melted into him. <3 <3 :D.

Everything about Michael is so wonderful. He is so wonderful to me. We just clicked instantly.  the things he says to me are unbelievably lovely.  Never had a boy say I’m the one he wants forever and always. That he would wait forever for me. <3 <3 my fairytale and he’s it.  The way mike feels about me is like no other and the way I feel about him is indescribable with words.  

I’m not sure if I ever was in love to know what love feels like. I thought I was but someone once told me that he pictures love to be the way it is when hes married and happy.

I can picture being married to Michael.  He takes care of me and I take care of him.  I caress his life with my warmth and my words and my lips. I am never anything but kind to him and he is the same with me. It’s all I ever wanted. To get back what I gave.

I will never stop feeling so lucky. I feel so lucky whenever I look into his eyes. Right now they are green with a faint yellow line. I get weak in the knees staring into my favorite color. His sexiness I am attracted to just blows me away. He has not just his ears peirced but he has tattoos.  I mean we all know how much i love that !!!! lol and not to mention the cherry on top ..HIS amazingly ripped abs ! lol you so dam fine mike  sike i miss you way more than just for your hottness baby.  <3  The affection you give me when we are together is incredible. I love the way you make me feel like I am the only girl in the world for you. Because its exactly how I feel about you.

I trust him. even though I have all these fears like he won’t feel the same way about me or that there’s no way he really will always shower me with this love.  But I will surrender and discover. 

He’s got my heart. and he keeps fighting for it.

8/7/10 <3
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Jun 21

whydoyousing-deactivated2011081 asked: You look really great in that beach picture. That green looks fantastic on you frealz! :)

lol when did you send this? i havent been on here in a long while  and what beach picture?? lol

Posted at 1:06 AM

Jun 9

fBryant Edward Constantine

That’s the name of the teddy I got.  Mezz won it for me with me in mind.  All I think about is a boy liking a girl. aw how cute. Every since that moment it’s like i saw him in  a completely new light. Woah I havent written in so long. I guess right now in my life its summer time! been seeing friends and making new memories. went to a party at rutgers first one for the summer. didnt meet anyone new. but enjoyed the company of mike and mezz and josh . josh and mike were giving me great guy advice haha it was pretty cool hearing what guys thought about relationships

mmm summer. i saw a movie that i really loved..letters to juliet. so adorable. and robin hood was alright. i went swimming at pt pleasant again i prob. wont go again but hopefully i do when the water is warmer . Ooh i went to new york city with my family and that was awesome. my dad took us up to his building.. a skyscraper. so awesome. being on the roof..on the balcony. oh god i always feel like im a royal tourist in ny hhaha.

i realized Im not good at remembering my memories. I just tend to remember how i felt. the feelings.  I’m just glad to know I’m a happy person. I dont have to remember exactly what i did .. but its nice to be able to go back and remember i guess that’s why ill try writing here about what i’m up to.  Today I went to volunteer at St peters. it was my first day. I didnt enjoy it. i didnt really get to be with patients and that’s what i really want. I feel liek i was doing too much work for a volunteer. I did SO MUCH MORE TODAY than at my job at BCC. so lame. but I wont quit. Ill just try find something else. Then i spent time with tracy n. I’m so glad i have her. Shes my best friend at rutgers. so its like shes always there where I am. i dont feel so alone.  and worst part of today was just saying how Colin isn’t my friend anymore and wont talk to me. its just that. people will always surprise you. well  now i hate being home because there is no peace . i hate it. my sister is so hectic i cant take her anymore. shes too much . so much fucking noise. always messing up my things. but whatever. I just will spend more time at rutgers. tomorrow going to volunteer in morning and then study. i better study because I have dinner plans. I’m kinda looking forward to it. today at walmart i tried to find a gift for the boy. it was funny hehe because its easy for a guy to get a girl flowers or tedddy bears or whatever. but what do I get a boy? haha  idk i just want to be more than nice. guess it will just come to me . mmmm yup i just thought of a fun surprise

question of the day. why do i hold myself back? mmm time to be assertive and go after what i want

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Posted at 8:38 PM 1 note

Jun 2

don’t we all

all this frustration makes me want to have a rebound person to ignore all this emotional turmoil

Posted at 12:09 AM 1 note

Jun 1

Straight through my heart

I had no idea what to write ! I stilll don’t know how to let it out. Anyway I asked Maxx so he said I should write about past experiences and how they  have shaped me to the person I am today.  I guess the easisest thing I have come to learn is not to let my emotions control me.  It’s crazy how something psychological can control my health and relationships.  It’s just best to stay at that set “happy ” point. Why wouldnt I always want to be happy. I mean. I’m alive. Perfectly healthy. Perfectly shelterd and spoiled. When I could have it worse. All I have to do is get out my statistics on diseases, and illnesses, and endless problems.There are so many ”sad” situations its not even suprising to me when I hear about it. I mean all I do is study diseases.. I can’t help try and diagnose everyone I meet haha funny. And yet right now I dont’ feel special because nothings affecting me. I dont even have allergies ! lol . It’s like why don’t I have the virus that my sister danielle has. and now my mom is sick. It’s like I’m not gonna get sick no. but the people close to you will.

Well another thing I learned was how to be with another person I mean if it wasn’t for him I never would have opened up to someone and get to feel what its like to have that bond- that not even girlfriends share. Well my whole experience with him just reflects the quote ” ‘Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all ” so that’s all. I’m a very content person.  If I died today I would be ok with it.  I don’t know if Im putting up a wall but whenever something starts to get to serious I push back. I mean I aint stupid. I’m just like my kitty. You just beat the shit out of it to potty train it so it wont pee all over your lliving room haha and just like any pet she Quickly will learn. And it may be fear but why would I want to start something that may end up in the worst experience of my life? so I can get beat up again? Jason keeps asking me what I want so I guess that’s how I feel.

and the famous question . what kind of guy would I like? oh I have no idea~ I mean I can tell you my celebrity crushes are mostly depending on looks.. I guess I might be a little superficial but come again I had the hots for mclovin lol apparently chris looked like him and it really bugged a lot of people that I liked him but I didnt see why they were so shocked. Anyway ya he has to catch my eye in that special physical attraction way.  There’s one type that I know I definetly fall for who has the medium length blond hair haha I could just say California surfer boy ya thats prob my dream hottie lol Maxx says im picky with guys. but I’m not. I’m just picky with my feelings. I don’t just fall head over heels for every guy. I could probablly count how  many guys I have really crushed on while attending RU. hm yeah. 4 in total. they were all nice cute boys and silly dorks too so guess I really fall for them.mm chace crawford

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